evan asked me what can make me open my heart for a guy?

you know,i've been in love before in my secondary years.he was a year senior than me.my bestfriend knew how long i loved him.that time i was in sec 3,while he was in sec 4 & done with his n level.the night,he asked me wether was my heart still open for him & of course when a person you've been waiting for so long & suddenly asked you that,you would say yes right?& i did.i was foolish at that time to say yes.

we in contact for a few months till its my birthday,i thought he would be the first to say happy birthday to me but i was wrong.i never heard from him eversince then.i kept all the pain to myself,crying late @ night,throwing tantrums.i wasn't in my right mind.no matter how hard i tried to fall for another guy,all i can think of is just him.just him.

my friends tried so hard to make me get closer to a senior in my school because i said i admire him but everything just went wrong.i'm sorry,my first & last love story ends badly that i don't even want to remember.that is why i never want to put anymore high hopes on any guy.i don't want to cry late @ night or even throw my tantrums.the feeling is sucks!really.