you know what readers,i'm crying alone in my dark room.i don't know why after a phone talk with sis,a sudden feeling of loneliness comes again.everyday,i angry for nothing & in the end at night,i would cry in my room.hmm.what to do,no one wants to hear my problem anymore.as for mum,she doesn't understands my situation since she is in her 50s & she thinks that i'm mature enough to handle my problems.hey! i'm only 16,i should be sitting by your lap,throwing out my problems to you but all you think of me is just that i'm bad & why i can't behave like my brother.as for my sister,her behaviour is same as me so can't be blame but i'm worse than her.

it's gonna be a short post again.i just don't know what to say.tired of thinking my problems.i just want to throw it to the sea & let it flow somewhere else.you know what is my dream when i'm 20?i would be sitting by the beach with someone special who understand me,don't even care about my behaviour & would listen to my problem. & since i love watching sunset.it is include in my dream too.haha.

ok,i guess enough sadness being poured in this post.i guess that's the only way to pour out my problems.i hope 2010 will be just fine for me.enough sadness in my life in 2009.pray hard.