my life would suck w/o you

hello.as you see,i've not blog for 5 days now.i had some problems in school and even outside school.my eyebags are really going black.i hate it.i've been crying non-stop and wanting of BOO to listen to my problems are now just a dream.i don't want to listen to your explanaition anymore.

lately,crying alone was sux.since i can't share to anyone and don't want to trouble others,so i cry silently in my room with lights off and without anyone knowing was a pain.i had a few slashes on my hands and idk what in the world i'm doing that.i just couldn't bare the pain.i just can't simply commit suicide right.hmm.so crying is the only way i can let out everything.l can't rely on my blogs and my diary coz it won't work that much as the pains are still there.i just want everything to be the same like last time where all my friends would joke around and won't fight that often and with that boo around to share problems.and now everything's gone.VANISH in a blink of eye.
studies are just a piece of crap.i couldn't even study in class.i loose lots of my focus in class,i would rather walk around and sleep in class.i often rebel in class.whatever for i study?no use.i'm useless now.to me studies are just a piece of shit that i wouldn't want to have in my life.teachers keep discouraging students to drop subjects.some worst,when we study they SCOLD.when we don't they scold.so what for study?FCUK!

so just now did watch some of the parade rehearsal.i must say it's quite ok.heri keep hitting his backs with the base drum sticks since his back was pain i think.then the rest went out to meet someone.to me,you're a dramatic guy full of nonsence.twisting your story her and there.DAMN YOU BUTCH!

i hate studies!
i hate school!
i hate teachers!
i hate dramatic guy!
and i hate BOO!

but i love A.S.H.Z!
i love you!
i love BAND!
and my class too!