today is thursday and i hate today.i was quite sleepy in class till i didn't study almost for all subject.i spent my time sleeping and joking around with the guys who sits around me.as they play the poker cards,i make joke and disturb them play.i went to the toilet for alot of time to cry?funny?NO! but that's how i have to do since no one i can talk to about all my problems.my eyes were red so i stayed awhile longer in the toilet than in class so i won't have to be interviewed by classmates.it's hard for you to hear this but it's much more harder for me to handle.it happens the same thing during band,i controlled my anger and those tears really i hold on.thanks to yong hong justin wei xiang for making jokes today.we played slapping game.which was to slap people to make you yourself happy.weird game?that's us the band members.

it is now in the month of February.i'm losing hope in everything.my dreams is going to be shattered one by one.i can no longer hold on.i want this to end fast.all my life i've been dreaming of going to polythecnic but since then i've no hope in going there.ITE?it's better for me to end here and find jobs.as i've said i've lose hope.

i'll end my pathetic post for today here.bye suckers!
PEACE OUT!