now i'm feel so miserable.i don't feel good.i cry like there's no other day to cry.don't call me an emotional girl as girls emotional are stronger than guys but not the EGO.i think i can no longer talk to Boo.i think i can no longer talk to my friends like how we use to.i don't feel right about everything.my changes are too big for anyone to handle.now i depends on my classmates to make myself cheerful but it seems that it will last for awhile.some ask me,"what's wrong with you,Syifa?" let me answer for you.i don't even know what i'm doing now or what is the problem with me now.i got no hope in everything.i can't study.i can't cope with everything.i was just putting a mask every morning which shows happy faces and put off the mask back at night.let those tears roll down my cheek and let those tears be a mistery to everybody.

i hate those who TALKS bad about me behind my back or maybe sometimes just when i beside them.HELLO!i'm not transparent.maybe your eyes needs an operation and make sure you spot me first.pathetic asses!what do you gain by talking bad about me?oh please!to think you go to a secondary school education,you would be more mature but hell no.YOU don't have the rights to judge me.how long have you know me?a year?2years?3years?4years?no matter how long you know me it would still be the same,you can't judge me as you're not my parents.they know me inside out.but what do you know about me?my bad side?i think you all better zip up your bloody mouth and reflects on yourself.those -------- words you said about might be reflecting on yourself assholes!so if you're not happy with me,talk!not by whispering to your friends.maybe you would say,"how do she know?".don't be stupid ok! it's obvious that you're talking about by just one look.you know my ears are sharp.be careful next time if you wanna talk about me.i ask you just one simple question,how does it feel when someone talks about you behind your back?or even worst when they are just near beside you?leave me a tag on this question.bloghoppers!

i love you people if you tag me.

i think i've made my minds up a minute ago.

i will:-

not talk to Boo anymore so it will be easier for him.

not to talk much to friends but only talks when it's important.

be a better girl.

wouldn't disturb people.

still hate that girl(asshole bitch!)

mark my words!i'm saying this with twice thinking.

i hate hurting people.so i agree with myself to do this list.

ok bye.

(crying now)