i cried just now and it was a sudden one.when hui hui was taking my shoe away while iw as trying to control those tears.suddenly they laugh as i was searching my shoe and shouted,WHERE'S MY SHOE? then i burst into laughter when i found my shoe with her.and tears really did flow down my cheek.baby ink was laughing too to see me crying for a shoe but infact i wasn't.i'm crying of something else.why do fates don't go as i want to?i really need someone to talk to.who understands me deeply.
ex,you give me too much pressure and i can't take it.please don't sms me call me force me to meet you under the block to just persuade me to come back to you.this won't work.seriously.you said to me this in your recent sms,"i felt like i'm the victim and it cuts me deeply like a knife when you walked out if my life with a new hope of love from (insert name)".ex,i don't think what you're saying to me now is your heart saying or just words that meant to be just words.so what you can give me your life to win my heart over?i'm not a DESPERADO like you.sorry to say that but please this is not the right time.OK SHUT UP!

main topic is cry.i don't know why i cry?STUDIES?EX?FRIENDS?LOVE?FUTURE?what is that suppose to be mean?no one helps me like i said USELESS.i want to express everything every problem i had but i can't.not can't but i don't know wether the people i'm gonna share my problems will understand or not.it's hard to have problems.sometime i try to share my problems with my partner in class but it's a guy.i don't think he understand any of it.pathetically,i don't feel like going to school already.take me out from school mum.there's no use for me to go school with problems around me that i can't even handle.this is a test for me from God?is this the way?i don't know.but i know that i WANT to DIE!