well readers don't read the top. not important for kiasu public ppl who want to see. only to that HANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNAHHH to see larhh ekh. red carpet larhh red carpet=.=" basically i made a grave mistake today that will hurt my friends and BOO[ if only he read my pm and my blog]. i tried to commit suicide today[2x mind you]. i tried to choke myself to death and slash at my vein really deep. somehow papa make me seriously upset, angry,dissapointed and more that i can't describe. so what's going in my mind was i'm not good enough to be your daughter huh?so i said to myself i'm gonna commit suicide then he will realize my sacrifices. no one in my family or relatives have ever appreciate what i've done. i'm like INVISIBLE in their life. what they know to do was just scold me and keep canning. those traces at my back is all the canning. i don't feel the pain at all because i'm used to it since i was kid. that's why i'm stone-hearted. i don't give a shit to anybody. idk why it comes to that "cousin" i soft-hearted and let her off. arghh! forget it. just to anybody trying VERYYYYYYYYYYY hard to make me damn piss off with you starting from now. you're not gonna make it. from those who begging for forgiveness from me like jeff who beg forgiveness because his offences towards me won't be forgiven till forever.